Bone Dog

So, this is a kids story I wrote a few weeks back. I like it; although, it is only the second draft, so there may be a few more changes in the works. I've asked my dad, who is an artist, to consider illustrating it. If he does, I'll post his work as well. (Assuming I get his permission to do so, of course.)

"Bone Dog"

Bone Dog was made of bones. He didn't have any hair. He didn't have any skin. He didn't have anything at all. Just bones.

The other dogs had hair. The other dogs had skin. The other dogs had everything. And bones.

But their bones were on the inside. Bone Dog's were on the outside.

"I want my bones on the inside, too," thought Bone Dog. But he didn't have an inside. Just an outside.

There was a big park in front of Bone Dog's house. All kinds of dogs played there.

Bone Dog wanted to play there, too.

But when Bone Dog tried to play with the other dogs, they ran away or tried to eat him.

One day one big dog even threw Bone Dog's tail bone to the other side of the park. "Go fetch," he growled with a mean smile. Some of the other dogs laughed.

After that, Bone Dog wished he wasn't a bone dog.

Every day he sat in his house during the day watching the other dogs play. But he didn't ever go play himself.

He was a sad dog.

One day, after watching the other dogs play in the park all day, Bone Dog went to bed, but he couldn't sleep. He sat in his room looking at the park through the window.

"If only I were like other dogs," he thought.
Then Bone Dog saw something, something surprising.

There was a dog playing in the park at night. But this dog didn't look like the other dogs. He was a silvery shadow dog.

The silvery shadow dog played in the moonlight. He jumped and spun and chased his tail. He looked like he was having fun.

"He's probably mean," thought Bone Dog.

Just then the silvery shadow dog saw him in the window. Bone Dog looked away quickly, but the silvery shadow dog barked to him happily. "Come out and play," he barked.

Bone Dog pretended he couldn't hear. He wanted to play, but he was still afraid.

The silvery shadow dog barked at him some more. "Hey, come out and play," He barked.

"Maybe he's not mean," thought Bone Dog. He wagged his tail bone hopefully.

"Come on," barked the silvery shadow dog. Bone Dog ran down the stairs, out the door, and into the park.

"I'm Bone Dog," he barked happily.

"I'm Ghost Dog," barked the silvery shadow dog.

He and Bone Dog ran and jumped and laughed and played all night. And in the morning, Bone Dog was so tired that he fell asleep right away. He didn't have time to watch the other dogs play.

After that, he and Ghost Dog played in the park every night. And after a while, Bone Dog forgot about wanting to be anything other than a bone dog. He was too busy being friends with Ghost Dog.

The End.

Sticky - Existential Warrior

A couple of years ago to amuse myself at work, I started creating stick figure cartoons using leaves from a sticky pad. Later on I branched out into using the backs of receipts as well. (That's just the kind of guy I am.) In any case, I've been reviewing them and think the first one I created is my favorite. Enjoy!

Beat-A-Matic 2000

So my youngest daughter was being kind of nasty today when I got home (She seems to be going through some kind of phase - for details, see my wife's blog.) and it got me to wishing for the Beat-A-Matic 2000.

What's that? You say you've never heard of the Beat-A-Matic 2000?! The handiest parenting device for the lazy parent since television?!

Well, alright - that's probably because it's something I thought up when I first realized that one of my responsibilities as a dad is to be the disciplinarian.

See the trouble with laying down the law and then enforcing it, is that you become the bad guy. And who really wants that? It's certainly not something I imagined when I was thinking of becoming a parent.

*A younger me thinking aloud* "Hmmm... perfect! And then I'll be the bad guy."

In any case, the Beat-A-Matic 2000 solves that problem handily. It's a spanking robot that you keep in your closet. Then, whenever your kids are being bad, you just press a button, and - viola - the Beat-A-Matic 2000 appears magically to discipline your kids. And best of all, you can act as surprised as the kids. "No, Beat-A-Matic, no! Don't beat my children!" Now you're the good guy and your kids still get disciplined.

Ah, the Beat-A-Matic 2000 - it might be my best uninvented invention yet.

When Harry In Real Life Met Sleepless Sally In Seattle ...

She Was Wearing 27 Dresses, Carrying A Little Black Book, And Trying To Lose A Guy In 10 Days After Attending 3 Weddings And A Funeral Where She Was Always A Princess Bridesmaid And Never The Princess Bride (Nor The Corpse) ...

Have I left any of them out?

Romantic comedies - they're so awesomely formulaic! I just watched one tonight with my wife. And by "watched one with my wife", I mean she chose it, then promptly fell asleep. Which, ironically enough, is how I end up seeing most romantic comedies these days - with the woman of my dreams snoring in my lap while I watch two confused souls:

meet,
fight,
realize they are all wrong for each other,
fall in love,
realize maybe they aren't all wrong for each other (but that they can't tell each other),
have some bad thing happen (usually caused by the man, but sometimes by the woman),
separate on bad terms,
pine for each other (cue the scenes of them at work, visiting former haunts, watching the phone ring, listening to answering machine messages, blah, blah, blah, while staring mournfully into space),
have an epiphany (true, he's a jerk who trashed my name publicly, but we're *meant* for each other),
race to catch the other before they leave, *gasp*, forever (nooo! don't get on that plane, she really does love you!),
joyously, tearfully, tenderly reunite, and then ...

"One Year Later"

get married before a happy party of family and friends who knew they were meant for each other all along and have magically decided to let bygones be bygones.

The brilliance of the formula has inspired me to invent what I am sure will become my legacy - "Microsoft RomantiComeditron XP" - a little piece of software (for Windows only, sorry Linux lovers - no pun intended) that takes two names and automatically generates a brand new romantic comedy. Now we can literally have 10 or 20 new romantic comedies premiering each year ... um, wait a minute ... we *already* have 10 or 20 new romantic comedies premiering each year. (HEY, did someone steal my idea? What's a man got to do to get a legacy around here?!)

What? ... What's that?

Sorry, I've got to go - my wife just told me she could never be married to an insensitive jerk who doesn't love romantic comedies. It's time for me to go pine (cue scenes of me staring mournfully at the computer screen while sad music plays in the background).

Desert Mirage (My entry in the Washington Post's fiction contest)

So, in the February 10th edition of the Washington Post Magazine, they announced that they are sponsoring a contest for original short fiction dealing with the theme of love and based on the image on the cover. When I can figure out how to get my scanner to work, I'll post the image on the cover.

Although, I still haven't finished my other short stories and am pretty rusty at writing fiction, I made it a goal to enter a story in the contest. My entry is found below. In my opinion, it's not my best work, (although I tried) but it is complete and got entered before the May 2nd deadline. (I guess this one is more about following through than anything else.)

"Desert Mirage"

For my seventeenth birthday, I tried to give myself the gift of freedom. At sixteen going on seventeen, I was still young enough to believe that if you ran fast enough, you could break the thread of your own history -- and once you broke free, who knew where you'd end up? I had days where I imagined myself riding off into the sunset with a rugged young cowboy from one of the nearby ranches or driving to Las Vegas to become a famous dancer. Other days, though, felt like millstones around my neck. They literally dragged me down beneath the surface of time and left me suspended, watching impotently as the river of life passed over me. I felt like a female Pinocchio, waiting to become a real girl. I hung on woodenly, one hand clinging to the smooth, glossy surfaces of dreams while the other fought to pull me up over the rough edges of reality.

If you stand out too much in a small town, you're bound to see trouble. Living outside of town on a chicken farm, with two parents born out of state, and flaming red hair in a land of brunettes and bottle-blonds, I was a freak from the word “Go”. By my teens, I had built up a hard shell of delinquency. I spent a lot of time with the tougher young ranch hands from around the area. As I approached my seventeenth year, I still hadn't gotten into any serious trouble yet, but there was no doubt around town that some of those ranch hands were hoping it was only a matter of time.

The morning I turned seventeen, the sky was blue and clear. My favorite ranch hand at the time was a boy of nineteen with red hair like my own. He'd skip out pretty regularly on his morning chores to drive me to school and that morning was no exception. As I lay with my head on his shoulder, staring up into the open sky, I let my young chauffeur kiss me goodbye, first once, then twice, then ... oh, I don't know. I felt the his desire swallow me whole, then spit me out again, like Jonah's big fish. I washed up on the shore of the schoolyard exhilarated to be alive. I kissed him one last time with just enough passion to let him taste my excitement, then headed into homeroom.

The thing about homeroom was Stacy Carmichael, a bouncy, bossy blond and head of the cheer leading squad. With the sky so blue, I'd almost believed I could forget she was there. But with Stacy, almost isn't enough. I'd only been sitting on the floor studying for a couple of minutes when she burst into the room, smirking to one of her friends as she looked down at me. As she tried to step over me, she tripped on one of my books and called me “a stupid carrot topped freak”. The baby blue of the day flashed bright red. Her mouth hadn't even closed yet when I punched her in the face, breaking her two front teeth and a bone in my left hand. It wasn't the first fight I'd been in that year; I was suspended immediately and sent home.

Once I was off the school grounds I stood at a cross road. There wasn't much to do in town on a week day, but going home seemed pointless. I could imagine the scene at my house. The Carmichaels would already be on the phone, threatening legal action if my parents didn't do something “to fix that out-of-control daughter of yours”. I could see my mother standing in the hallway, tears springing into her eyes as she listened to the tirade. “Why are you doing this to us?” She'd ask me accusingly when I showed up.

“I'm not doing anything to you!” I muttered under my breath. “You think it's easy to be me in this crappy little town? If anything, you're doing it to ME! Everyone thinks we're freaks 'cause we're not from around here – and I was BORN here!” To emphasize my point, I turned down the road away from my house and headed towards the ranch. I'd already broken one thing today and I was feeling reckless enough to break another. I half hoped if I broke enough things, there wouldn't be anything left to hold me.

Up the road at the ranch, I spotted one of the other ranch hands near the road. “Where's Eric?” I asked. “Working over that away in the barn,” he said, pointing with his thumb, “but if you're looking for trouble, maybe I could help.” He added the last bit with a wink. I ignored him and turned toward the barn. I could already see Eric coming out the door. With his red hair, he stood out even from a distance.

By nightfall, we were on the road, headed for Vegas. Our plan didn't consist of much more than a desire to make it to one of those drive-through chapels and get married. Ever since I'd first kissed him, Eric had been asking me to marry him. It was now or never. I couldn't leave, though, without taking something from home. Before we left, I crept back into my house and grabbed the first thing I saw lying on the counter – my father's wedding ring. “Something borrowed,” I whispered nervously to myself as I headed out the door, slipping it onto my finger.

The next morning dawned under an open desert sky. We'd driven through the night in Eric's old convertible and I'd fallen asleep against his shoulder. The sky was so clean and blue when I woke that I felt I could cut a fresh start out of it. “Something blue,” I laughed and Eric looked puzzled until I pointed at the sky. Then he smiled and winked.

By late morning, though, the sky had begun to cloud up a little, and I didn't feel so sure about Vegas. When I glanced at Eric, though, he was looking resolutely ahead.

It was a little before noon when the sheriff and my father caught up with us on the Nevada border. The sheriff took Eric off to the side of the road while my father got into the car with me.

“Son, this girl's a minor.” I could hear the sheriff saying to Eric. “If her father chooses to press charges, you're looking at some serious jail time.” Eric just looked down, scuffing the dirt with his boot.

In the car my father looked at me for a long moment, his eyes weary. Finally he shook his head, then kind of shrugged his shoulders and asked, “Why did you run away with this boy?”

When I didn't answer, he glanced at me again, saw his ring on my finger, and suddenly barked in a voice he'd never used with me before, “Answer ME!”

“I HATE living there!” I said, bursting into tears, “You don't know how much I hate it.”

When I got back home we never talk about what had happened. The only time my mother ever mentioned it again was the day of my father's funeral. At the time, I was struggling through graduate school and didn't know whether to drop out or to continue. After the service at the church, my mother invited me back to her place for lunch.

“I want to tell you something about your father,” she said. “I know you think he never understood you. After the trouble with that boy from the ranch, I saw how you kept him at a distance. I know at the time you thought you knew what love was, but you didn't. Let me tell you what it meant to your father.

“Your father's dream was to be a cowboy. Unfortunately growing up back east he didn't realize that ranching is a family business, something you grow up doing, not something you hire yourself into. We'd already married before he came to the realization that ranching wasn't going to be his life. Your older brother was born shortly after we married, and then you come along. One day he took a look at his life and realized that the image of the lone cowboy riding over the hill into the sunset didn't include a family and he had one.”

At that she paused and looked down at her hands, lost in thought. After a couple of seconds, she spoke again.

“Some men I've known would have left at that point,” she continued, her voice catching a little, “but he loved me and you kids too much to walk out on us for a dream.”

“Of course, he never would have told you any of this. He was too decent for that. I'm only telling you now because I want you to understand what it means to really love someone. He didn't just give up that dream for me; he gave it up for you, too.”

I'm older now, approaching middle age. To look at me, you might believe I've been this old forever – I know my kids do. The weight of all these years is only an anchor on my body, though, not my heart. There's still something about the empty blue of an open desert sky that gets to me. When I first see it, it makes me think of promises about to be made. It's only after the night falls and the clouds roll in that I think about how most promises end up broken. Still, in the morning, when the rain falls and the desert blooms and you see that image shimmering on the road just up ahead, I can't help but to believe the world is still good – even for all its broken promises.

X Girlfriend

It's odd to encounter someone from your past and see in them the seed of a person you used to know now grown into a person that you don't.

A few weeks back my wife found my high school girlfriend's blog and cued me into it. When my wife and I were dating she used to refer to this girl as my first wife because of how much history we had together. There was more than a little truth in that jibe. I learned a lot about love from loving her.

Of course, when you marry, you close the door on your romantic past. But you can't know someone the way I knew this girl and not wonder over the years whatever happened to the person who used to be the center of your world. It's not that I'd ever want to return to the past or trade my wife for her. But I also can't deny that who I am today owes something to that history - and there have been times when I wished I could bring the all of the pieces of me, past and present, together into one coherent whole.

Naturally, now that I know about her blog, I haven't been able to resist keeping up with her by looking at it regularly. It's interesting to see what she is up to now, but also a little strange. I've known for sometime now that she and her husband are out in the world living their own lives, independent of my own, but I've also maintained the fiction that the girl I once knew is still somewhere out there, too. Of course, she's not. She's all grown now, blogging about her husband and four kids.

I suppose that the idea that I could ever bring all of the pieces of me together into one whole is an illusion, too. Ultimately we all have to take the pieces of our lives as they are and make them work together without ever having all of the answers.

What it is

It turns out it is easier to write the occasional poem than to finish any of my short stories. (Alas, I'm too lazy for my own good.) Anyhow, here is my latest attempt to satisfy my desire to create something other than a project schedule or a meeting.

The world is what it is man
You can step off it
If you can

And why does it go where it goes
Who knows

I only know
I don't know
(That's so)

The world is what it is
Man

A thinking man thinks
About thinking

A doing man does
What he can

And all of the others
My sisters and brothers
Are waiting for something to land

The world is

What it is

Man